it's nowhere near new year.

  during new year's eve a super friend greeted me quite different than the usual "Happy New Year" greeting which includes a lot of exclamation point on it, obviously because yes, there is something to celebrate about. her greeting goes like, "hey, we don't need new years to change the things we need or want to change, any day can be treated as new year which gives another chance :)" so, there. quite unusual, you think? some kind of a greeting or message which can be identified or classified as dramatic or whatever by some people who don't actually "appreciate" the idea. but yeah, i can and i do 'cause this person is actually the one who can easily relate to me the same way i can relate to her. yes, in short, she is, indeed my best friend.

   so how will this blog actually go? i've been looking for the time to actually start doing this, but believe me,i really can't, i'm starting to think that i can't really blog, you know, that moment when i feel like "i am a trying hard blogger". does anyone feel the same? please, share the idea on how you can get over it. thanks :) but anyway, i came to realize that it takes time for you to actually come up with something.

   what is that 'something' i came up? the title might not make sense to some who will read this but let me try to picture it out how it happens to have sense. it's nowhere near new year. have you accomplished all the new year resolution on the list? any changes happening, whether good or bad? I am a fan of new year resolutions but i never accomplished them on the supposed to be time, you know as soon as you woke up from new year's eve and you are supposed to follow it, never did make it, honestly. hahaha. 

   gosh, what is this blogger trying to say? (hope, you ain't thinking like this right now) i guess, this blog says the message of or pertains to the question, "when will you start?" it's nowhere near new year to make another list of new year resolutions and make them happen but you know you can actually make "every normal day resolutions", and as you go on living your perfect little life, you can do it, slowly but accurately and surely. now, how will you know that you are actually achieving them, it is by then that you are actually having fun. living the most, from the smallest to the biggest detail in your so called life. 

   i guess, what i am JUST trying to say is that you don't need to wait every new year to give yourself a chance to change some things and embrace new possibilities. Every day can be a new year, as my bestfriend said, means that every day can be a chance for you to either try something new, to come up with something which can bring that smile on the dull face caused by always being afraid to try, though you never really tried, just yet. i guess, i learned to just go, mess up, learn, change, and finally be someone, simply happy. after all, it's nowhere near new year, what could actually happen will all that time? i hope you ended up thinkin' :)

   hi, i'm livin' a neutral life :)

   -tracy