I lost but I won.

I'm a junior.
I had the urge and the heart to run for batch representative for student council, last last week.
come elections, and come results.. and, I lost over my opponent.
but you see, don't get me wrong and see my writing right now, as a sign of bitterness, friends and readers.
of course disappointment is a part of it, but yeah, I figured that there is MORE to it.
and this, my friends, is how I won over my loss. :-)

"You know, I read last Saturday a quote by Robert Anthony,
  a quote which goes like, 'You were placed on this Earth to create, not to compete'
  and then it all came to me.. God, it's true.
  you see, throughout the campaign period, I see it as a chance, given to us candidates,
  to introduce and present ourselves to you, so you guys, would know my name, our names,
  to read and to analyze our platforms,
  and most importantly, to think.. to think really hard,
  if some of us can really contribute something,
  as some of us become a part of next school year's student council.
  If others, see that campaign period, as a chance to compete and defeat others already,
  then come to think of it.. are they even up to something good?
  don't get me wrong, I know, in a way, competition is a part of all this
  because that is where the excitement and motivation comes in, but,
  in the end, what really matters is how we present ourselves, and how everyone will remember us."

-- this is the part of my speech that I wasn't able to say to the crowd during the "meeting de avance" because each candidate was only given a time limit of 2 mins to present. Sad, yes. but you I think the reason I wasn't able to say it is because it is not intended to be said that time, it is intended for me to read and reflect on after the elections, after my loss.

I was waiting till midnight of Saturday, hoping that someone could at least spill some hints on who won.
and yes, they came, all thanks to the reliable source, twitter world.
those who can't wait to congratulate their friends who won.
so, I saw it, someone congratulated my opponent with the "ALL CAPS GREETING" :-)
and the moment, I saw that.. I, uhh...sighed and yes, cried a little.
and after that.. nothing. I actually shut down the laptop and sank into my bed. *goodnight, loser* :-))

the following day, a lot tried to comfort me, by means of words of wisdom and hugs.
seriously, I thank all of you.
I really appreciate all the "Tracy.. awwe, talo ka daw, okay lang yan!!" so yeah, thanks guys! :-)
but that's when it sank in to me.. um, hello? shouldn't I be depressed?
I was starting to think that God, I am so used in losing that I am immuned to it, but it is also at that time that God sent people for me to actually bang my head into something hard and stop thinking pathetically.
1. Mom: "Anak, it's not for you, yun lang yun. God has better plans for you plus, good experience yan"
2. Dad: "Talo ka daw sabi ng mama mo. okay lang yan! something good ahead, be a good sport"
3. Friends: "Okay lang yan, love ka naman namin eh!"
                 "10 lang lamang! imagine? 10? ano baaaa. close fight yun, oh!"

honestly, for me, I find this more overwhelming than "Congratulations!" if ever I won.
Experience. Plans. Life -- these 3 words get into me, when me and my friends talked about it.
I mean, it's true!
just the thought that I overcome my fear and had the courage to run is something else.
just the thought that I got sick because of too much stress and being busy is OVERWHELMING, swear.
just the thought that i had the courage to post my face in posters and tarpaulins is SOMETHING!! :-))
and most importantly, just the thought that people believed in me, is something I am really THANKFUL.
all in all, this experience is superb! and it is something I will always look back into.
I didn't win but if it wasn't because of my loss, I wouldn't get to slow down and think all of these.
If I hadn't lost, I wouldn't get this chance to realize things.
If I hadn't lost, I wouldn't get to see and believe that God has his plans for me.

my platform goes like this.. "Good decisions, come up with Great solutions".
for some time, I prepared this for the voters, for the campaign period.
only to find out that in the end, it is me who will find great meaning into it.
my decision to run and lose will never be a bad thing for me,
instead, I found the solutions to my self issues.
now, I am more determined, and confident in a way to face any situations ahead.
I'm just really glad that I won't regret one day the idea that I didn't try.
I'm not making a big deal out of this, it's just that I really learned something from this,
and I find it inspiring to see that it all makes sense.
I thank God for this, really.
It's true that when you trust in Him, things are just simply perfect and happy.

this is Tracy Reyes, and I lost but I won.. big time! :-)

(c) TUMBLR

I did looked at things differently.. and it was worth it and more awesome than expected.

ALWAYS look on the BRIGHT side, cause there really is :-)

*to my opponent, congratulations! best of luck in the position! :-)